Self Portrait Idea

In my self-portrait, I want to paint a picture of how my brain operates. I have had a discussion with my best friend trying to explain how my thought process works. I want to visually express how my mind feels. I want to push myself in this project and go as personal as possible. I want to expose myself to the masses in a figurative and literal way. I want to use this video for people to get a grasp of who I am as a person. I have a lot of confusing thoughts and fast moving parts to me.  I want to show the levels of things that I constantly think about. I want to layer video of me explaining my process as best as possible. I want to show the barrier that I feel I have with people I truly care about. I have trouble being clear with my intentions. This creates a lot of trauma for me and darkness I deal with on the daily. The sound I want to mix my voice of dialogue with sounds I hear from my inner demon. I want to make a soundscape of my wellbeing at this moment. Chaos should be the feeling I want to leave the viewer with. I think I want to physically have a barrier in front of the camera as I'm filming. I not exactly sure yet at this moment. I really like messing with lighting, primarily color. I use a lot of color in my projects. I think I have to go all in with my cinematography. I think I will buy more colors to use for this film.